Grasping, pulling, striving,
Desperate.
Fingertips near brushing,
Lost again.
Hoping, straining, tugging,
Truth in reach--
But only for the knowing.
Thursday, February 10, 2011
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
Adjusting to Life
If you haven't noticed, I have not posted much recently. Last summer I was working in an office full time and feeling drained every night. I didn't do anything or see anyone and I didn't feel like I had a life to write about.
And then there was school. This last semester was chaotic to say the least. I took 5 upper division courses. Being at a small school I end up in a lot of the same classes as my friends, we all agreed that it was the hardest semester we've ever had.
I also moved into and apartment with my previous roommate and two more friends. That has been an adjustment. The more difficult adjustment was balancing time between them and my serious boyfriend. Between classes, roommates, and my romantic relationship, I did not have much time left for talking about life and discoveries on my blog.
Which brings us to today. I have been enjoying reading and feeling a part of SarahThe's life and was reminded that I used to enjoy writing about my life and thoughts online. I think it is a good tangible way of seeing the progress that you have made.
So I will be doing that more. I will be aiming to post at least once a week, aiming for Tuesdays. Since life does what it wants to, it will probably vary.
And then there was school. This last semester was chaotic to say the least. I took 5 upper division courses. Being at a small school I end up in a lot of the same classes as my friends, we all agreed that it was the hardest semester we've ever had.
I also moved into and apartment with my previous roommate and two more friends. That has been an adjustment. The more difficult adjustment was balancing time between them and my serious boyfriend. Between classes, roommates, and my romantic relationship, I did not have much time left for talking about life and discoveries on my blog.
Which brings us to today. I have been enjoying reading and feeling a part of SarahThe's life and was reminded that I used to enjoy writing about my life and thoughts online. I think it is a good tangible way of seeing the progress that you have made.
So I will be doing that more. I will be aiming to post at least once a week, aiming for Tuesdays. Since life does what it wants to, it will probably vary.
Saturday, April 17, 2010
On nearing senior year.
Wow. Next year I'm going to be a senior.
In college.
It's a completely different feeling than being a senior in high school. In a way, it's terrifying.
My freshman year of college I told myself that I was only getting a bachelors, I was tired of school so that was gonna be it. Now, entering my senior year, pretty much everyone is telling me to get a masters. And I want to... just not quite yet. I want to take at least a year off. I don't want to put off my loans, I want to pay off my loans.
But what am I going to do after I graduate? I don't know. Last year, I would say, move back to Phoenix, see if American Valet still wants me and move into a cheap apartment with my best friends. Now? I don't know. I could still go with that plan, but money-wise I might end up back at my parents house. Or, if I could get a job in California I might do that. It'd be really cool if I could get a job related to what I want to do, but I'm not even really sure what that is. Ministry or Anthropology? Which type of each? There are a million options.
------
Right now though, I will focus on the now. I can't let myself get swept into that tunnel of thought. There's the rest of this year, figuring out where I'm living next year, job next year. Plenty to do in between now and graduation, but people are starting to ask so I feel like I need to have something to tell them.
I guess it's back to square one, my freshman year of college I put on my myspace something like, "I don't know what I want to do after school, but I know I want to serve the Lord". We'll see where that takes me.
In college.
It's a completely different feeling than being a senior in high school. In a way, it's terrifying.
My freshman year of college I told myself that I was only getting a bachelors, I was tired of school so that was gonna be it. Now, entering my senior year, pretty much everyone is telling me to get a masters. And I want to... just not quite yet. I want to take at least a year off. I don't want to put off my loans, I want to pay off my loans.
But what am I going to do after I graduate? I don't know. Last year, I would say, move back to Phoenix, see if American Valet still wants me and move into a cheap apartment with my best friends. Now? I don't know. I could still go with that plan, but money-wise I might end up back at my parents house. Or, if I could get a job in California I might do that. It'd be really cool if I could get a job related to what I want to do, but I'm not even really sure what that is. Ministry or Anthropology? Which type of each? There are a million options.
------
Right now though, I will focus on the now. I can't let myself get swept into that tunnel of thought. There's the rest of this year, figuring out where I'm living next year, job next year. Plenty to do in between now and graduation, but people are starting to ask so I feel like I need to have something to tell them.
I guess it's back to square one, my freshman year of college I put on my myspace something like, "I don't know what I want to do after school, but I know I want to serve the Lord". We'll see where that takes me.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)